Friday, June 24, 2011


Yes, I'm still here. 
I know it's been a good bit since I've posted. 
I would apologize, but I think it's better I just explain myself. 

I was in overload.

You see, sometimes I have to live for extended periods of time without my hubby.
He's not military, but he is gone enough that often people ask me if he is. 
Over the past year and a half though, we were blessed enough to hardly fly with the job we had and then we got laid off which kept Daddy home every single day!
Not working and being laid off a blessing you say?
Well, yes. 
Have you ever had a 6 month period of time where your husband had 
no other priorities but you and your kids. 
Oh money is stressful for sure, and not knowing what, if anything, was coming was hard,
but having him here every day was priceless. 
A gift my children don't even realize they were getting. 

Anyway back to overloaded me. 

My goals are like this:
Monday: work on Evelyn's Closet orders
Tuseday: Zoo or something fun with my kids
Wednesday: Evelyn's Closet
Thursday-Saturday: more fun with my kids
Sunday: Church

Seems easy enough right? 
Except it isn't always. 
Somewhere in there I try to make the time to read my Bible.
It's a priority that I want to be more like eating..I know I have to do it to survive.
That mostly happens at about midnight every night and I 
am so interested in what I'm learning that I stay up way more than 30mins to an hour.
Then I'm tired. 
Kids wait for no man! Absolutely no rest for the tired momma if Evelyn Claire is awake! 
Then there is this super blog! 
I LOVE my blog!
But, it's a bit time consuming when you first start out. 
I found out fast that I needed to link to my facebook often. I needed a Twitter. 
That lead me to other amazing blogs that I wanted to read and learn from. 
I cut out TV altogether. 
Thought it would be hard, but it wasn't AT ALL. I don't even miss it. 
But the computer is much harder to put down. 
I need to be on here to get my orders, but I need to be working on orders to maintain timely deliveries. 
I need to be sure that I don't use the words
"Not right now baby, mommy is working" 
because this business is just a side item. This includes not saying that I'm too busy blogging either. 
My hubby works so I can stay home and our amazing family
who has taken care of us through all of our job issues does so, that I may stay home
and raise our babies. They are VERY FIRST! 

So a little over a month ago I posted about B having some emergency surgery. 
From then on it was chaos. He left, A got sick, E got sick, E got hurt. They don't even make me 
officially sign in at the ER anymore. I just initial in 3 places. 

I probably should have written a post about how I needed a break, but there was no time.
I just stopped. 
Everything computer related. 
No blog. No Twitter. Just kiddos. Some minor Evelyn's Closet when they were sleeping. 
More Bible time. 
Hubby home. 

Now I think I'm ready to be back. 
Can you forgive me for abandoning all forms of communication?

I thought you might! 

Next week will be great! 
Furniture tutorial. 
Guest Gour-Make It Monday from my super sweet friend Toni Jill!
I'll "Pour out what's on my heart" as usual, and I really hope you aren't on 
overload so you can pop by and visit me. 

Goodbye Overload....until next time. 
I'm a mother..I know "overlaod" will be back! 


Thursday, June 2, 2011

Pouring out what's "On My Heart" - Real ABCs

 Sorry for being on a bit of a break from the blog.
My little man is sick this week, and 1 visit to the ER later,
we're just spending a lot of time cuddling and getting well.
So a little early, but here is my Friday post:

I did a post a few weeks ago about the ABC's of Me.
While everything I wrote was factual, it didn't 
really sit well with me. It felt formal. 
Who cares what size my bed is, 
or what my first pet's name was? 

There is a LOT more to me that those things. 
I'm really this girl:

No photos. You'll see why...
I'm working on it.

I'm incredibly insecure. 
Yes. I have a blog and I share some deep stuff.
P.s. I'm sitting behind my laptop.
I'm in control of my camera. 
You only see shots of me where my nose doesn't look too, well like my nose. 
You only see me on days were I like my clothes. 
Most days I'm in sweats. I have 2 small kids ppl. Lets be real.

I am fantastic at sharing emotion. If it's possible to be "too honest"
then I've got that covered. 
What you might not know is I have always 
been completely down on my looks.
Specifically, my nose. 
Would you believe people have said that they don't like me because of my nose?!!
What does a nose have to do with my personality?
I also don't favor my teeth. They are just outright not good teeth.
I actually had a part of my tooth fall off while preggers with A. 
I want them to be all brand new teeth, but I'm a nervous 
wreck that I won't like them. Same with my nose.
(I can't afford either, and I'm trying to not care so much)
I'm flat chested. 
Most days I don't care, but some days I want to be SURE
that my husband isn't disappointed by that.
I'm super slim, but not toned. 
I hate that because people think I'm this super healthy 
chick and I'M NOT! I eat junk ALL THE TIME!

I was never happy single. 
I had NO clue how to be who I wanted to be. 
I always wanted a husband and a family. 
I don't feel like I've missed out on a single thing during my 20s 
because of marriage and kids.

I met my husband on the internet!
Yup. He is a pilot, and I was a flight attendant.
But, we didn't know one another. 
GASP! I know. But this year is our 5yr anniversary.
We had both dated and didn't want to search for people in the typical dating scene anymore.
We both wanted to get married and start a family ASAP. 
We did. We're happy!

We will probably have more kids. 
Be fine with or be shocked, but unless your God you can't control it. Sorry.
but not really sorry at all. 
My kids are the most precious blessing of my life,
and just one more way that God reminds me that he made me on purpose
and he loves me enough to fill the holes in my heart.

When I'm down I have a handful of people that I know will pick me up. 
I'm thankful for that more than anybody knows.
In elementary school there was a club of girls called:
"The I hate Courtney Club". 
No idea why they hated me. We were nine.
But, God has given me friends who are thicker than 
the thickest family and I'm so thankful for that. 

Three blog friends of mine 
have been a huge inspiration. 
They have shown me that I have my own story.
To share, to write, to let God dictate.

Their buttons are to the right of this post:
Storing Up Treasures
Casey Wiegand
Little Ms Momma. 

Thanks for letting me share the real parts of 


Linking up with Casey